Y VOLAR COMO MARIPOSAAAAA

This has to be the catchiest song from a movie I have heard in a long time! I saw the film about a week ago and I’m still singing it… so here it is so it can get stuck in your head :D Enjoy!

From the Woody Allen film Vicky Cristina Barcelona

“Barcelona” by Guilia y los Tellarini

You are NOT the biggest loser...

Did y’all see The Biggest Loser last night? So sad! I know Carla deserved to be in the game… she wanted it so much. Joelle on the other hand was clearly the one who was dragged into it or came on the show just to be on TV or just couldn’t say no to her friend. She isn’t (or wasn’t at the time of the taping) mentally ready for the change. It must have felt horrible when everyone wrote JOELLE in huge ass letters and Carla in tiny little letters like saying, ‘just eliminate that other bitch’. At the end it said they haven’t spoken since they left the ranch… that’s the sad part for me. I went through this with a friend of mine… I got mad at her for letting me down, but even madder for letting herself down. We discussed the problems we were having and then broke ties as far as the weight loss situation, but at the end we remain friends and now that I'm no my own journey I help her out whenever SHE reaches out to me. I don’t push her to go to the gym with me anymore… I let her be. That way when she is mentally and emotionally read for her lifestyle change she knows I will support her. It’s cliché but… without figuring out why you've self sabotaged for so many years and why you have let yourself get to “this” point… then you cannot move forward. Even then it’s still hard to move forward… but at least you know that you can forgive yourself for any relapse because you are worth it… no one will care for you as much as you do!!! Can I get an AMEN! LOL. No but seriously… OMG have you guys seen DIETRIBE? I hope our show is better! I hope I don’t look like a total buffoon either… EEK!

Hello Gentle Readers...

So here it is… I stare at this blank page with so much hesitation. For years now I have wanted to start a blog… I was stupidly discouraged by a comment someone made to me, this woman I used to work with said: "Huh! You really think people are gonna care about what you have to say?"… She said it in the nicest tone and with a little smile on her face which indicated how naïve I was being (that same smile certain people had on when they would tell me that Obama was never gonna win! YES WE DID BITCHESSSS!). That was it. That ridiculous comment from someone who in hindsight I realize was so frustrated with HER life and the fact that no one cared what SHE had to say.

Anywhooooo… here I am today, opening up to you… to the world! Its scary, but its part of this new life I intend on living. You guys will soon know a little more about me thanks to an upcoming show on WEtv called "I want to save your life" which premiers on April 25th, 2009. Thanks to the show I was given the opportunity to change my bad habits and start the life I had always wanted to live… with the help of professionals of course! I was assigned two kick ass personal trainers and an awesome life coach/nutritionist/published author/all around multitasker named Charles Platkin. With their help I am on my way towards regaining control of my life, losing about 100lbs and finishing a Triathlon, all while dealing with all the bullshit adult life throws at you. On the show you will see the results of about 100 days of working out and eating right... it's been daunting to me how little 100 days actually are. Time seems to shrink when you are given a deadline for national TV. Yikes!!!

So welcome to my little corner of the cyber-verse… I must warn you guys that these here words and opinions are mine and only mine and that if you are offended and/or disturbed by them, then you are more then welcome to (in the words of SEAL) Fly like an eagle… on over yonder to a less emotionally draining blog. For those of you who wish to stay for the ride… then buckle up!

PAZ!

Caro